A Guest Visiting While Battling Cancer

In the dim evening light, the door opened with the sunset-tinged sea behind me.

"I was passing by and felt drawn to you. I don't really have anything specific to ask... I just came in."

As he entered smiling, I felt a strange sense of poignancy.

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With a Cup of Scorched Rice Water

I invited him to sit comfortably and served him Hwata-style scorched rice water.

I always serve scorched rice water to my guests. It is Hwata-style rice water, made by cooking rice, brown rice, and barley myself and purposefully burning 80% of it. Many people enjoy it as a comforting traditional drink, and above all, it is savory and delicious without caffeine. The reaction is usually positive.

The conversation began leisurely. Since he asked if he wanted to inquire about his love fortune, I opened up his Saju and Tarot.

The Gwandae fortune is present in the Heavenly Stems. He has the intention. However, the Sangwan Grand Cycle in the Earth Branches strikes it out. There is only the intention, but no action. Since both the Year Branch and the Month Branch are in conflict, it looks like the main gate has been shattered.

Fortunately, the Cheon-eul-gwi-in Grand Cycle is flowing alongside it. The person who comes to him at this time is the one who will save him. With the Imjin White Tiger, Gwaegang, and two Hyeonchim stars, he possesses a sensitive yet strong temperament.

The key is for him to become a vessel capable of accepting that connection that comes to save him.

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The signs of illness were evident.

A body that was too emaciated. I could sense the signs of sickness.

A short while later, he told me he was battling cancer. He said he has improved a lot now and is even traveling. He mentioned that he came to Mukho for a week-long stay.

I told him to take it easy, we talked about his love life, and he left.

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A few days later, he visited again.

At sunset, he came to visit again, saying, "Hello."

This time, he revealed a little more of himself. He said that he, too, had studied Saju. He even offered to read my Saju instead.

I encounter people like this once or twice a year while doing consultations. I was a bit flustered, but I shared my birth data with him. Since he was the same age as me and had also studied Saju, I told him to go ahead and try analyzing mine.

His reading was brief, and I found myself listening more to the person than to the interpretation.

He mentioned that he also does consultations in Seoul. He also said he wanted to go to graduate school to study further.

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He was going in the wrong direction.

I spoke cautiously, but clearly.

"Now is not the time to pour your energy out."

The first thing a sick person must do is not learn more or be more active. They must first look into why they are sick and what was twisted.

In the philosophy I follow, illness is rarely seen as just a problem of the body. It is believed that unresolved issues accumulate, and neglected things harden, eventually speaking to us through our bodies.

I often think about the time spent living solely by one's own way, one's own thoughts, and one's own standards. When that builds up, I believe the body recognizes it first.

Of course, the causes of cancer are medically complex, involving many factors beyond any single explanation. But in this tradition, there's a belief that if one's self-assertion and stubbornness are too strong, it can show up in the body, as if the cells themselves harden.

Even after cancer cells are removed through surgery, this philosophy holds that the disease may return unless one also changes their underlying way of life, not just the physical condition.

That is why, alongside proper medical treatment, I believe it is important to look at one's own contradictions, habits, and mindset as well.

One more thing this tradition emphasizes: the murky energy of words that disregard or offend others is believed to eventually return to the speaker.

It is said to disturb the body's balance and weaken one's resilience.

Conversely, the belief is that if we let go of our stubbornness, listen carefully to others, and respect them, something in us softens too.

I find this to be a meaningful way of thinking about prevention and healing, alongside proper medical care.

Graduate school is not the issue. This body and this mind come first.

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Reflecting on myself is the top priority

A week of living in Mukho. Perhaps the journey itself was already the beginning of healing. Walking along the beach at sunset, opening the door and stepping inside without a plan, and taking a brief rest over a cup of scorched rice water.

That was exactly what he needed most right now.

It seemed to me that his energy was directed outward, while something inside him was quietly asking for rest.

The most urgent priority is to look back at myself first.

I sincerely hope for a good recovery. And regarding that connection—that person coming to save him—I hope he can set aside his prickliness and accept it warmly.